I hope you experience such an intense wrecked feeling that it changes you forever. As The Bible is written with many powerful words and tones it is not meant for it to only affect you for a short time. The Bible was written in a very specific way to wreck you to your core. Why else would God put such intense examples if it would not give us a "heart attack" so to speak.
I recently wrote a paper about my Theistic Worldview as a Christian. I was lead to one of my favorite author's quotes on pain:
“God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks to us in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: It is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world” -C.S. Lewis (Weight of Glory)
After reading that I felt God was showing me the purpose of pain. Pain that we experience has to be so heart shocking that it causes us to desire a new heart.
Take for instance the process of defibillation. This process is used to restore the heartbeat and allows to shock the dead heart back into life. How often do we need God to do this to our own heart?
To be honest I've been wrecked in the past but tonight I was really wrecked....no joke. I will never be the same thanks to the The Holy Spirit coming alive in us. The Holy Spirit can transform you in such a supernatural way that can only be described by God.
Are you ready to fully accept what He has for you?? I don't know about you but I am ready to give up whatever I have to in order to live with The Holy Spirit. No holding back!!!